Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Does love need a Validation?



If I'd Only Known,
That this is the last time we've met,
I would have stopped the break of dawn,
And stopped the sun to set.

If I'd Only Known,
That I would not ever see you again,
I would have framed a picture of you within,
To end my suffering to end my pain.

If I'd Only known,
That this is the last time I sit by your side,
I would have told you how much I loved you,
Keeping rest things aside.

If I'd Only known,
That we would never hold hands again,
I would have held them strong,
And never let anything go wrong,

If I'd Only known,
That you would stand always by my side,
I would have fought the world for you,
Breaking all the walls through.

If I'd Only known,
That your love was true,
If I'd Only known,that you would come back soon,
I would have waited for you to come by.

If I'd Only known any of this,
That you were what I was breathing for,
I would have breathed my last for you,
Seen you enough and bid you adieu,
While all I can do now,

Is sit here....

......and wait!!!







I read many quotes on love,even heard people saying it feels great to be a part of it but one question often strikes my mind and that is -Why does love need a Validation?Love is an unconditional feeling wherein you care for the person,you really feel like spending time with that person and a state of mind where you think more about the person than yourself .And when it's a true love,you tend to change your world so that you can become a part of somebody else's world.But I have often seen people being questioned by their beloved on their feelings for him/her and time and again they are even expected to keep proving their love for them.


Some people even feel odd and irritated when they are reminded of being in a committed relationship.They start feeling suffocated because they feel they have someone in life who will keep suppressing them,who will keep reminding them of their presence,who would even keep telling them what are the best things and what not.But why don't such people feel that their partner is concerned because they are keen to take things ahead in life,why don't they feel that the one they are getting irritated on is considering them to be their world,their life.


When you talk about commitment,What I believe is that it's a state where you accept a person full of flaws and love him with his flaws.Physics law"Opposite attracts" really holds well in real world too,people with different mindset do fell in love,but to make a relationship even more successful they need to have a good sync with their partner,they need to come out of their shell of thoughts to pull somebody in their shell-for life.


Why can't things be simple.Why can't we do certain small things that make our future partner happy?Why do people in love need to care about what future holds for them,as long as they have faith on each other,they should have faith on life as well that no matter what may come they are going to stay as one.


Love is all about expressing,not about keeping it within yourself.Love is about going crazy anytime not about waiting for the right time.Don't lose the ones you love because it might not take too long to find an apt person to fall in love with,but it takes really long to forget.

So fall in love and go crazy!!:)

P.S.The irony is I personally don't believe in love.


Saturday, December 1, 2012

My Saviour:)


We think the same
When I called out to you
You came
You finish my sentences
You know exactly what to say
When I needed someone so badly
You didn't turn away
When I'm down
You make me smile
You are always there for me
To go the extra mile
You are my only true friend
The one there threw it all
You hold out a helping hand
To pick me up each time I fall
You are so damn good to me
How do I deserve?
Some people say I'm so outgoing
But its you who gave me nerve
People comment on my smile
Or my pretty eyes
But its you who lives inside of me
You are what make's me shine
You see friend, you complete me
That's why our friendships true
Forever and for always
A completed me and you.


After a long gap,I got some time to pen down something about a special person in my life.We have been great buds since our college days.Initially,I took her to be a dumbass because she always had some typical seriousness on her face,so my perception wasn't at fault:D.Ohhh! I forgot to mention her name,she is-"Vidhi ",well that's her popular name,for me she is "Totli Tiwaran":D.First year in college had been awesomely great,I really can't think of any superlative degree to add onto it.I used to bug her,screw her head badly every now and then and trust me she loved it all despite her resistance to it:D.She has been my "Saviour" because she has always pulled me out of everything,even good situations at times:D.I used to text her friends on her behalf but usually It ended up in a disaster:D.Not that I haven't ever tried to soothe her nerves and helped her,but things used to fall apart most of the time:P I used to stroll with her and "Eyetonic" was the only time when our views were pretty similar,else we were more like "north pole-south pole".


Her weekend stay at my place,we having a gala time together,making fun of each other,we managed to smile despite the tears rolling down our eyes,our talks(that have been ultimate,and will always be),the stupid dreams that we dreamt together and have still been dreaming of(I never wanted to dream anything with her,but scarcity of....made us do so:D),wild imagination I would say:D.


I really miss you for everything,right form every nostalgic moment to every situation where we just couldn't stop giggling.He elderly advises and comments,which she herself couldn't apply in her life:D-I love it all.I am falling short of words because the way she has holded my hands and been by my side,I think that makes her all the way "Special" for me.I cannot forget the traumatizing secrets that we used to share with each other but couldn't stop laughing till our stomach ached because of those extra effects and imagination that was put into play:D.


I have been dreaming of the day when she will get married, because as of now I am the only specimen she has with her for her experiments of any sort:D. Nevertheless,I would love to bear all her tortures:):P.She is an awesome,vibrant(lately I realized this:D)and a lovable being.I can't do injustice to you by writing any adjective because that might end up being an understatement:).She has taught me ways and means of getting rid of situations that have been bugging me since long,made me smile whenever she could:).Despite all ups and downs,I can proudly say that we are "Friends Forever,Friends for Life".:)

I wish her all the best for her life,and trust me no matter for how long people or close ones are going to be with her,I can atleast assure her that she has to bear my crappy brunts all her life:P:)

Love You my Amitabh :):D

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Life: A Journey Worthwhile

A man doesn't have time in his life
to have time for everything.
He doesn't have seasons enough to have
a season for every purpose. Ecclesiastes
Was wrong about that.


A man needs to love and to hate at the same moment,
to laugh and cry with the same eyes,
with the same hands to throw stones and to gather them,
to make love in war and war in love.
And to hate and forgive and remember and forget,
to arrange and confuse, to eat and to digest
what history 
takes years and years to do.


A man doesn't have time.
When he loses he seeks, when he finds
he forgets, when he forgets he loves, when he loves
he begins to forget.


And his soul is seasoned, his soul
is very professional.
Only his body remains forever
an amateur. It tries and it misses,
gets muddled, doesn't learn a thing,
drunk and blind in its pleasures 
and its pains.


He will die as figs die in autumn,
Shriveled and full of himself and sweet,
the leaves growing dry on the ground,
the bare branches pointing to the place
where there's time for everything.



The heading might sound a bit philosophical,but its just too realistic.Do we need to take Life "Seriously"?Every second person is found to be facing some situations in life which often strain their nerves and compel them to think over the same.Quoting a few set of questions might help in co-relating.Why do we take any relationship in life seriously even when we know its end might not be as expected and everything would fall apart?Why we take relationships like friendship seriously even when we know that a single truth despite hundred lies spoken all the while,may break the bond and would lead to parting ways? Infact there are umpteen things in life we don't have a control over,yet don't know what is it that doesnt stop us from being serious in our life.Why can't we be fun loving,jovial in tackling even the worst situations in life.
We spend most of our life bearing tantrums which in no way are giving us mental peace,the sense of contentment and a settled life.Life can never always be fun.If you facing turmoil,you soon would find happiness too.In this life full of hustle and bustle,I have seen people craving for inner peace just because they are not able to untangle some complications in their life.They ultimately end up being a pissed off being.Some people end up not getting their expected goal in life,they undergo a state of depression and what not.But is any sort of resentment or repentance going to change the situation?Why not to stay Cheerful and feel blessed that you are free of going through the traumas.Bringing sense of positivity and the fact "LIFE though bitchy or witchy,can vanish with the spur of moment" can definitely help in living life to our fullest,infact every bit of it.
Stop worrying about what people think about you,how they react,respect relationships but don't lose your self respect in nurturing them.Life is an unpredictable thing,why to waste it over petty things that are just meaningless.There is so much to do in life,so much to explore,so much to unwhirl.Realise the essence of life because its good to be late than "late Mr.":D
So,Learn to live life sincerely but not "SERIOUSLY".:-)

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Shallow Brains: You can't escape them.





I never ever thought that like ponds and small rivers even people have become shallow.Shallow in the way they think,they respond,they react,just everything.There was actually a time when you could rely on people and consider them to be your friends and close ones because they belonged to you.But now with the Shallow mentality taking a toll on people,such expectations have become mere imaginations.

They lack the sense of understanding and reciprocating because they have become too materialistic and petty things like feelings,they hardly matter or hold any position in their life.Infact,the situation now is so grave that every second person is found to be cheating on other for some unclear reasons.Just for as long as they feel one should stay with them in their life,its all Okay for them,but as soon as they realise the person is expecting a bit too much they prefer to keep themselves out of league and kick such unwanted people from their lives,not even realising they might mean the world to someone.I have seen people's heart tend to malfunction at the very moment of taking some crucial decisions in life,but their brain never does.In small little things inspite of looking for pleasure,they look for their personal interest and that too on long term basis.Sounds hilarious but you too might have come across such people in your life.Needless to say,every second person who comes in your life has the same"Shallow Brain".

Infact people these days just for the sake of their mental peace crush any relation and dump it,not even being able to sense how long it might have taken someone to nurture every moment that they had spent together.And one more thing thats worth paying attention,People when they find better candidates suiting their future prospects and needs,they take no time in replacing the other candidate and again its their mighty Shallow Brain which makes them do it all.I am using the word Candidate because for such petty brains we all are nothing more but a candidate:).

Beware of Shallow brains,and don't let your brain become shallow to make things and situations appealing.I would love to be by the Shallowness of nature but not a Shallow Being:)


This awesome poem would add more meaning to what I wrote:

This is a Strange world
With a lot of people
Running after money
As it is honey
They assert,"I love to talk"
But no idle talk
When there is need
They talk to all people
They Invite,chat
Saying"I love to chat"


After their need
 they hide in their shell
Feeling quite well
Spent their life
With their wife.
When their is a strife or turmoil,
They apply oil
to their boss
At all cost
To get a raise
In their own ways.


Tuesday, March 6, 2012

The Inescapable Voids


"Sometimes in life we don't need anyone,
But sometimes in life we don't have anyone when we need."



Void-The dark empty space that somehow stays in your life and affects it to the core,even if everything else is working fine.Void in life due to some avoidable circumstances proves to be a disaster that ruins your life and getting out of any such trauma is more like climbing the Mt. Everest,almost next to impossible.There is no one in this world who doesn't own a void-be it for such sort of regrets or losing someone too close in life.No matter how strong and practical we may sound or appear to be like,no matter how ignorant we try to behave towards various demoralising and dejecting situations,still just a void has the power to take a toll on you and like a tornedo,it can wipe all your cherished happiness in a go.What is it that makes a void in life overpower us contradicting our perception that voids are short-lived?


Its been truely said"Hundreds of lies donot break a relationship,but a single truth does".
Similar is the power of a VOID.Its pull is even more intense than that of a black hole.Even if you try hard to get out of its whirlpool,you still get stuck into it.There are many such tornado kinda voids in my life,aren't there in yours?

Thursday, July 14, 2011

My Sister And Me











For many years we have shared our lives
One roof we once lived under
Sometimes we laughed sometimes we cried
Through winter storms and thunder
The younger years have faded fast
We've gone our separate ways
But through all time our friendship lasts
Our bond in life remains
As summer brings the happy times
The autumn winds will whisper
A closer friend I would never find
Than the one I call my sister.






Me and my sister-She is elder to me by four years,indeed a good age difference but I never let that difference come in my behaviour for her:D.I bet this,nobody can make out who is the elder one,hook or crook makes me appear elder to her:P.We are very different as far as our nature is concerned-she takes sometime to mingle with people,but I take fraction of seconds,provided those people cater to my terms and conditions efficiently:D.No doubt she is an amazing person,too calm and composed,simple,down to earth.Positivity in her is to such an extent that at times I literally have to give her lectures on how to become devilish for others:D



Looking back to the time,I am reminded of so many incidents we have witnessed together.When I was just an year old,from that very age itself I had learned to threaten her:D But she has been so good that she never retaliated.Right from my holiday homework and loads of charts and stuff,she made them all for me,just for the reason that she has a cursive handwriting and that was the only time of the year when she used to boast about it:D.I didn't mind and ignorned,obviously that was the only option I was left with.We used to play"teacher-teacher",I used to be the student mostly and was made to study each and everything,the teacher in our game had to ring the bell for the next class:D(scarcity of funds to appoint somebody for this post:D) but whenever it was my turn,the bell authority was with student again:D and I could hardly teach her for more than few minutes or just till the time I could open any lesson and the class was done:D.She definitely took undue advantage of being my elder sister in such games:D and my innocence too.:P



We used to play for hours and hours together,killing time was our passion:D but never has this happened that it anyhow affected our studies.Ahhh how can I forget the "fashion show"-This game was the outcome of my sister's thought process:D.We didn't try anything like models do,the daily wear clothes kept for being ironed used to be our attire and the credit for the music-goes to my sister:P.Watching"Small wonder" generally made us feel why we were not like"Vicky-the robot" and cursed our destiny for it:D.When we both started sleeping in a separate room,I always wanted to sleep with my mother.So,I used to lure her so that I could get into mom's room somehow:D because it would have been difficult for two of us to sleep with our mother:D.So,in such cases I used to dramatise the situation and made my probability of sleeping with her on the safer side:D.She even had to bear my habit of waking her up late in the night and asking her to get me something to eat,saying"even bournvita would work":D.Ultimately,one fine day she told mom and from that day itself a lunch box with parathas was kept by my side:D.I relished it like anything every midnight.



Our fights and tiffs used to be hilarious ones:D We both used to pull each others hairs to an extent that it would take life out of anybody,but it could never take anything out of us:D.The loosening of the grip had to be a simultaneous act:P We were like killers for each other,used to fight day and night-"brawl"would be the apt word.I had the habit of crying whenever I had to go to some new school and looking at me crying and finding her attempts failing in cheering me up,the best option she was left with-start crying herself:D.I usually used to get into her class and disturb her like anything.I have been full of energy since childhood,infact overdose:D compared to her:P



An awesome sister-She used to make me learn my lessons and even used to make me revise them so that I gain some confidence and could score well in the exams:).She has been my biggest support in almost every phase of my life,she knows all my secrets and yeah as far as I think, I know hers too:D.The late night gossips have been amazing which made us sleep at 3 or 4 in the morning.During our tiffs,cursing,abusing and blaming each other used to make us feel that we were enemies to each other,but such feelings never lasted for long:)



How can I forget to mention how I used to literally wait for two occasions throughout the year-One was my birthday and the other would be hers:D.I literally used to wait for the gifts to come and before she could even think of a quick glance at her gifts,I had already chosen my share of gifts by then:D But she never said a word to me and agreed happily:) or may be not,she can answer that better:P



The space too would fall short in describing what our relationship is like but we,for sure,are the bestest buds:).Just be the way you are.

P.S. But try changing where ever you can:D specially in the matters concerning me:D Don't forget about the soft corner you have for me in your heart,soften it more day by day:D












































Tuesday, July 12, 2011

The 2 Idiots In My Life(the 3 rd one is me:D)








I don't know exactly how many times I have seen the blockbuster movie" 3 idiots",but everytime I watch it,I am reminded of the 2 idiots in my life and ofcourse the third one is me.The time the movie was released,I had a good intimacy with quite a good number of people in my college and some people from my school even,but the feeling of that "3 idiots"kind of friendship was deep inside me.I really longed for such awesome,chill pill kinda buddies in my life,obviously not in a large number because in that case things become too messy:D.Finally, I am a part of it.The traits of each of us is so different yet don't know what is that special bond(fevibond:P) that binds us together.Since the time we became friends,I guess there was hardly anyday that we spent like couch potatoes:P always full of energy specially for the cases where we had to put in our destructive minds:D.Everyday had a new start,I never felt gloomy,monotonous and I guess those few days are when we all could live our life to our fullest.




Starting with my roomie,my close friend,Sakshi.The irony is I am still referred to as "Roomy" despite the very big fact that we both don't have any room as such:D.So,for her, I am her lifetime roomy(mind it,I didn't mean life time partner:P).A girl with totally feminine personality amongst us three,because her likings are quite girly.We used to call her "chaudhraayin" because we three had rooms in a sequence and herz was the middle one.So,she expected every session, right from the movies,chit chats,anything useless,making maggie,just everything to take place in her room.:D (combing hairs,oiling hairs:P).Actually,the only thing we were allowed to do was to sleep in our own rooms:D.She had the habit of peeping into my window from hers and check whether i was awake or not.She has been so honest to me,whenever she found the lights of my room turned off despite a test the very next day,she never betrayed me and slept the same moment with no furthur look at the topics.:D She has all the traits of being a best buddy and ofcourse she is too dear to me:) She loves to get her photo clicked,this is something i hate the most.But being with her,I was always made to click her pictures in various poses:P Though I retaliated several times yet I loved every bit of that moment.:)The awesome time we spent in class,the back benchers,she has been a big support to me in bearing all those laborious class sessions which at times were too dreadful.The secret things we did together;) there hasnt been a day when I slept early because I must say this girl is full of energy,be it any time of the day:D (You would'nt get such even after you have a glass full of glucose:D) and she used to abuse us both because for me and sush,our favourite passtime was sleeping or just lying on the bed:D.She's been a big support to me and that's what makes me love her soo much.:)




The second group member,Sushmita.She has actually proved me wrong,I took her to be very arrogant and didn't like her a bit.In the initial days of our friendship,we were too formal and whenever I had to share something with Sakshi,she used to leave the room for privacy sake and trust me I really miss that privacy till date:D because now she would'nt move her bumps a bit even if its the most secret thing:D The vivacious,full of life girl.She lives for friends and friendship,the most lazy girl.I really can't forget her sentimental dialogues and her pet words"chiii yaar chiii":D
We both are quite alike somewhat in the way we think,our ideas and all.Her dance moves have been the most entertaining thing for us,its hard for me to forget any of them:D because they were more than enough to blow anybody's mind:D.The way she used to jerk her hand whenever she got infuriated on we teasing her,but later on we too didn't pay heed to any of such acts on her part:P.There was a lobby in front of our room which had a locked room and girls in the lobby told us that late in the night the light in the room automatically gets turned off and turned on.Sushmita used to tease me by standing in front of that room and used to take my name,my branch,my room number:D (so that there's no confusion) and words to chase that witch on my part:P.In herself,there was not a single day,when she slept with her light turned off:D She always wanted to look smarter than us,this reminds me of the scooty incident when she was the driver and we were sitting behind her,the situation was such that anybody could fall any moment,but still this friend of mine was pushing us,asking us to behave properly and wanted to look smart:D.




We,The Three Musketeers,The 3 idiots,are Friends Forever.Even telepathy proves to be true in our case.Love you guys.The late night scooty ride,the Rickshaw ride:D,the lock incident,the dance sessions,the daily canteen parties and so many things to jott down here.Every day that we have spent together is still so live and fresh in my mind,feels as if it took place just a few days back.I am going to miss my college days and trust me its all because of you both:).