Trying To Find The Essence Of Life

Unique as a fingerprint is every beat of our heart.
Precious is everytime we laugh,for every smile has it's own art.
We all follow a way,not knowing to where it might lead.
Treasure memories-some painful,some sweet.

Magical is every moment in which we dare to dream.
Victorious are the minutes in which we have the courage to swim against the stream.
Often we attempt to climb mountains,trying to reach the sun.
Floating on clouds,having some fun.

Unexpected is every facial expression,for we dont know
Which might follow.
Worthy is every tear which is shed-one for joy one for sorrow.
Perhaps all our tears are gathered in the deep waters of the sea.
For each one is unique,and perhaps was meant to be.

Beautiful are the hearts of those who are patient and prepared to wait.
Strong are those who believe that it is never too late.
Valuable is our inside for our outside will fade away,
Like ashes blowing in the wind to the end of another day.




I took a really long break from blogging,just don't know what had kept me so busy,may be the time pass things or class and stuff.Now as again I am kinda laxed about it all,I thought of penning down my feelings.

ESSENCE:sounds too smalL a word,but indeed it has an ever lasting impact.In past 4 years of my life,I have learned many things and they are just innumerable.I have even undergone a change in my approach towards life,my thinking just everything changed and the change was so drastic that i just couldnt figure it out.

After my family,friends are the only ones who are the essence of my life.I wouldnt deny that its friends only who made me learn so many things,who made me realise what relationship means,the list is just endless.But at times i feel was the change required?Have I lost myself totally just to suffice to my friends need?Some of my friends proved me wrong in this aspect and I think I would love them all my life for this.Few even proved me right and made things a disaster for me.Are they the true essence?

The World Of Imagination.

Well waking up in the morning and that too when you had a great dream last night, makes the day indeed a special one.Thats what even an imagination can do.And when its about imagination,I simply rock,because I have the wildest imagination capability(even that too would be a small word to describe my calibre:P).Classroom has been the best place where i really cant escape this hidden talent of mine.Few days back while having a conversation with my brother(the hero of my life:D),I came across even his wild imaginations(no doubt he too was bound to inherit that from me:P).He wants the best comforts in his class in terms of an air conditioner,with less of homework burden,a bed even so that students can lie on it when tired(i wish i could implement this:P).Now lets make it more imaginative,using both my n his skills.What if even the teacher lied on their beds and taught the lessons.That would have been something fabulous.And guess what if a teacher had to hit a student,obviously she/he wont get up,they would instead carry an elongated stick and beat the child frm that very place and those beds would have had roller kinda small tyres so that students can move their beds and go to the teacher for getting their queries solved:D and to add on to it what if the principal even did the same stuff.rofl.Students for the admissions would have been checked how carefully they can lie on their beds and other capailities, I mean how can they move it(people would have given donations even if their child failed to pass the admission test:D).What if students topped on not studying,i mean the criteria should have been something like"HOW LONG CAN U SLEEP".I am sure i wouldn't have topped that even:(.


Imagination is where you can kill your enemy in your thoughts,and its the only time when you can do what you can't do in real.It takes me just fraction of seconds to imagine things on people who are narrating anythng and that leaves me with nothing but laughter hard to hide.But yeah as I am a champ in fluctuating my mood and emotions,i even do that perfectly and at the right time provng to be a quiet student in class:).Even at times at public places i face the same situations.They at times become inesacpable despite my attempts of ignorance.


But thats what I guess is whats life is like.Thats what gives me reasons to smile even when I am not feeling like,lessens the burdens on my head and make me feel free.Hope things continue just the same way..:)

Me And My Brother:)

Whenever I talk about my brother,it takes me back to the time when he was born.Before his birth,I was the most pampered kid both on maternal and paternal side.So, in a way I felt that he took my place,rather replaced me.I was too embarrassed because I was 10years old that time and everyone in the hospital had the same tone and expression"congrats boni,u gotta a sweet,cute brother",and to add on to my shock my aunt told me"your brother too has curly hairs"(you know what I thought,oh christ seems he is more like a negro, and those negro kids were on my mind till the time I hadn't met him:P).

It took me a few days to accept this very fact.But after that and even today ,we are like"killerz":P.We are literally after each others life for every small little thing,be it a chocolate,be it a piece of pizza or anything weirdo,we dont spare each other:P.Its usually he who insists me to take him out for fooding and stuff because he knows it well that I would convince mom for sure,hehe.But I too dont lag behind in taking the revenge,its he who pays haha:P(hey that's been just one's or twice,but i love mentioning it again and again to mark my victory over him:P)..

A cute little brother who always wants to crack my password on my phone to check my inbox(i guess every brother wants to check whether his sister has a guy friend or not:P,good going brother.:P) and when he is not able to access my inbox,he goes straight to mom,literally threatens me saying either you tell me or tell maa:D.He adores me like anything and wouldn't have his chocolate even till the time I am not back home.

But I must say he is a caring brother.Our relationship is like we are best buddies,though we get into tiffs every now and then but at the end we do end up sayng "sorry".Thats what makes it even more cute.:)

I Can Feel The Freedom

Now as my exams are over(please no discussion after examination:P),I am like what now.I have really got a long list of "things to be done"(but they usually stay untouched:P).I wont deny if somebody would tag me as "The most Ghummakad Gal",because that is too small a word,I am a freak when it comes to hanging around anywhere.So,when I got rid of my exams,it was on the very next day we all planned a trip to LANSDOWNE.Initially,when we were on our way,I felt I would surely be killed because I was the one who suggested that place and I really wasnt able to feel that we are really getting onto some hill,it was damn hot but when we finally reached it was quite a nice place,very calm and peaceful:).But the place and the people weren't aware of us:Pthe devilish people-me,my cousin and my brother(our motto has always been something like"be it jungle,we'll alws have mangal" :P).I swear the place isn't meant for one or two people,but if you are in a big group its going to be fun:) and that is what we did.We got onto so many weird places(top of the tree:P,on roadsides with typical poses:P) and yeah how can I forget my younger brother's dialogue when I and my cousin kinda gave up and couldn't climb the tree,he said"tum mujhe chada do,main tum dono ko upar kheench lunga":P too cute.The trip was fun,though there aren't much places to be visited but when you are with your family everything sounds"KEWL".It actually took me back to the time when i was a kid:).Oh my god I dont think we left any of swings,we tried almost all,despite being overweighted for it:D.

Every day is like a new day in itself and every upcoming day is holding good surprises for me and infact evryone:).One task (that is kind of a daily routine)-when I wake up in the morning,the first thing leaving my toothbrush aside,what I do is-make a "jolly"on my hand:P because I know my brother would check it anytime for sure(he has forgotten that I taught him this game).He really doesn't count how many times he lost the game,but what is on his tip is how many times I lost it:D and so he always look forward to a lavish dinner or something,and that too out of me who is totally bankrupt:P kinda "mission impossible for me".It is usually the other way round,I take treats from him every now and then,My "Sethji":P

The Moment I Was Waiting For And Here It Is

Finally time to pack my books and keep them aside.Exams are all over,feels great:).The concept of exam is something really hard for me to digest as I am not a bookworm and cramming things on such chilly nights with a situation more like an owl,it makes everything dreadful.Now almost one and half year left and this wonderful college life would come to an end.A place where I made so many friends on whom I can rely upon,I have more of frenemies i suppose,never mind.I learned to laugh hard with everyone,learned how nightouts are made to be successful,I am kinda champ in that,I am going miss everything in the later part of my life for sure.

I don't give a second thought to how did my exam go because its not a thing worth remembering,I moreover feel just a day can't decide your intellectual level,atleast it is not present in my case,may be thats why I am mentioning it so explicitly;).I have ten days of break,but I am sure I will start getting bored from tomorrow itself.But to avoid boredom, I have planned a couple of things,I would be paryting out on Christmas eve-final decision to be taken up by my sister,obviously I would enjoy partying alone.Furthermore, I am planning something exciting so as to soothe my nerves because the last few days have really been the toughest ones for me.I am going to give a new start to everything,may be for other's good or may be for mine even.

The Birthday Girl...wow..:)

So I am the bday gal today,a day that is long awaited but gets finished off with the blink of an eye.I prefer waiting for such occasions because it feels heavenly rather than the arrival of the day.My friends are such mindblowing people,the first thing that they asked me was where to come for treat and what I had to say" atleast wish toh karlo pehle":D. My cousins pet question"kitne basant paar kar liye:P" and the best way of escaping such questions"girls se age nahi poochte",growing older day by day:P.

I had to attend the calls till 2 at night because everyone was at home and had to set an alarm to wish me up.Ghhosssh,the best reason that I was told"yaar kya karen alarm ab baja or tv dekhte hue so gaye:D".Anyways,atleast due to these diwali vacations,I didn't bear those birthday bumps and those deadly rather brutal beating which leaves you with nothing much but a backache so that evryone can make out who the birthday girl is.

I clearly remember how I used to celebrate my bday during childhood days.Toffees,chocolates and which friend to be taken along for distribution(kahin woh bura maan gayi toh:P) and yup attire was something I was very particular about.I literally counted days on my fingers,kind of countdown.

The cutest gift I got this time is my brother's card:).He made it for me using all his creativity and small little brain,choo chweet:).Surprises is something I dont believe in because people around me have made me such:P they literally ask me"what do want as a gift,any ideas??" and that obviously leaves me with a smile saying"rehne do itna dimaag hi lagane padega mujhe toh whats the use:D"

With we growing up,the pattern and the ways of celebrating birthday do change.Feeling kinda grown up today,something i never felt before:).A day that makes you feel special,a day meant just for you,a day when you are made to feel that you really hold an important place(thats just a misconception for 24 hrs,people usually forget such assumptions once the next day begins:D).

Feeling A Little Free And Chilled Out :)

"Never believe the lines on your hand
That predict about your future
Coz people who dont have hands
also have a future
Just believe in yourself"



After the laborious sessionals and the dreadful nightouts, I am finally feeling so chilled out.I know I wouldn't come up with flying colours in these tests of mine and that too especially when they had a hi fi level(iit kinds :D).So, obviously over head transmission was unavoidable.My luck usually doesnt favour me,may be you wont believe to what I am saying but its true.If out of the whole book, I leave a section which is not very important,guess what the paper contains three fourth of it:P hard luck man.Just waiting for my destiny to take a turn-a sommersault instead :)

I usually think of quiting this stuff, I mean padhai likhai.I have a real wild imagination and during my exams it widens like anything:).I would prefer swapping my life with anyone,mind it anyone:P my servant,my pet,the sweepers (I think I don't need to elaborate on it furthur:D)

I know this phase wouldn't last for long, but as I have a small child inside me, I think it would definitely last forever:).Just hope that I get a good job,with thousands of bucks in my hand for my kharcha paani because my expenses are touching sky day by day:P.