Does love need a Validation?

If I'd Only Known,
That this is the last time we've met,
I would have stopped the break of dawn,
And stopped the sun to set.

If I'd Only Known,
That I would not ever see you again,
I would have framed a picture of you within,
To end my suffering to end my pain.

If I'd Only known,
That this is the last time I sit by your side,
I would have told you how much I loved you,
Keeping rest things aside.

If I'd Only known,
That we would never hold hands again,
I would have held them strong,
And never let anything go wrong,

If I'd Only known,
That you would stand always by my side,
I would have fought the world for you,
Breaking all the walls through.

If I'd Only known,
That your love was true,
If I'd Only known,that you would come back soon,
I would have waited for you to come by.

If I'd Only known any of this,
That you were what I was breathing for,
I would have breathed my last for you,
Seen you enough and bid you adieu,
While all I can do now,

Is sit here....

......and wait!!!







I read many quotes on love,even heard people saying it feels great to be a part of it but one question often strikes my mind and that is -Why does love need a Validation?Love is an unconditional feeling wherein you care for the person,you really feel like spending time with that person and a state of mind where you think more about the person than yourself .And when it's a true love,you tend to change your world so that you can become a part of somebody else's world.But I have often seen people being questioned by their beloved on their feelings for him/her and time and again they are even expected to keep proving their love for them.


Some people even feel odd and irritated when they are reminded of being in a committed relationship.They start feeling suffocated because they feel they have someone in life who will keep suppressing them,who will keep reminding them of their presence,who would even keep telling them what are the best things and what not.But why don't such people feel that their partner is concerned because they are keen to take things ahead in life,why don't they feel that the one they are getting irritated on is considering them to be their world,their life.


When you talk about commitment,What I believe is that it's a state where you accept a person full of flaws and love him with his flaws.Physics law"Opposite attracts" really holds well in real world too,people with different mindset do fell in love,but to make a relationship even more successful they need to have a good sync with their partner,they need to come out of their shell of thoughts to pull somebody in their shell-for life.


Why can't things be simple.Why can't we do certain small things that make our future partner happy?Why do people in love need to care about what future holds for them,as long as they have faith on each other,they should have faith on life as well that no matter what may come they are going to stay as one.


Love is all about expressing,not about keeping it within yourself.Love is about going crazy anytime not about waiting for the right time.Don't lose the ones you love because it might not take too long to find an apt person to fall in love with,but it takes really long to forget.

So fall in love and go crazy!!:)

P.S.The irony is I personally don't believe in love.

My Saviour:)

We think the same When I called out to you You came You finish my sentences You know exactly what to say When I needed someone so badly You didn't turn away When I'm down You make me smile You are always there for me To go the extra mile You are my only true friend The one there threw it all You hold out a helping hand To pick me up each time I fall You are so damn good to me How do I deserve? Some people say I'm so outgoing But its you who gave me nerve People comment on my smile Or my pretty eyes But its you who lives inside of me You are what make's me shine You see friend, you complete me That's why our friendships true Forever and for always A completed me and you. After a long gap,I got some time to pen down something about a special person in my life.We have been great buds since our college days.Initially,I took her to be a dumbass because she always had some typical seriousness on her face,so my perception wasn't at fault:D.Ohhh! I forgot to mention her name,she is-"Vidhi ",well that's her popular name,for me she is "Totli Tiwaran":D.First year in college had been awesomely great,I really can't think of any superlative degree to add onto it.I used to bug her,screw her head badly every now and then and trust me she loved it all despite her resistance to it:D.She has been my "Saviour" because she has always pulled me out of everything,even good situations at times:D.I used to text her friends on her behalf but usually It ended up in a disaster:D.Not that I haven't ever tried to soothe her nerves and helped her,but things used to fall apart most of the time:P I used to stroll with her and "Eyetonic" was the only time when our views were pretty similar,else we were more like "north pole-south pole". Her weekend stay at my place,we having a gala time together,making fun of each other,we managed to smile despite the tears rolling down our eyes,our talks(that have been ultimate,and will always be),the stupid dreams that we dreamt together and have still been dreaming of(I never wanted to dream anything with her,but scarcity of....made us do so:D),wild imagination I would say:D. I really miss you for everything,right form every nostalgic moment to every situation where we just couldn't stop giggling.He elderly advises and comments,which she herself couldn't apply in her life:D-I love it all.I am falling short of words because the way she has holded my hands and been by my side,I think that makes her all the way "Special" for me.I cannot forget the traumatizing secrets that we used to share with each other but couldn't stop laughing till our stomach ached because of those extra effects and imagination that was put into play:D. I have been dreaming of the day when she will get married, because as of now I am the only specimen she has with her for her experiments of any sort:D. Nevertheless,I would love to bear all her tortures:):P.She is an awesome,vibrant(lately I realized this:D)and a lovable being.I can't do injustice to you by writing any adjective because that might end up being an understatement:).She has taught me ways and means of getting rid of situations that have been bugging me since long,made me smile whenever she could:).Despite all ups and downs,I can proudly say that we are "Friends Forever,Friends for Life".:) I wish her all the best for her life,and trust me no matter for how long people or close ones are going to be with her,I can atleast assure her that she has to bear my crappy brunts all her life:P:) Love You my Amitabh :):D

Life: A Journey Worthwhile

A man doesn't have time in his life
to have time for everything.
He doesn't have seasons enough to have
a season for every purpose. Ecclesiastes
Was wrong about that.


A man needs to love and to hate at the same moment,
to laugh and cry with the same eyes,
with the same hands to throw stones and to gather them,
to make love in war and war in love.
And to hate and forgive and remember and forget,
to arrange and confuse, to eat and to digest
what history 
takes years and years to do.


A man doesn't have time.
When he loses he seeks, when he finds
he forgets, when he forgets he loves, when he loves
he begins to forget.


And his soul is seasoned, his soul
is very professional.
Only his body remains forever
an amateur. It tries and it misses,
gets muddled, doesn't learn a thing,
drunk and blind in its pleasures 
and its pains.


He will die as figs die in autumn,
Shriveled and full of himself and sweet,
the leaves growing dry on the ground,
the bare branches pointing to the place
where there's time for everything.

The heading might sound a bit philosophical,but its just too realistic.Do we need to take Life "Seriously"?Every second person is found to be facing some situations in life which often strain their nerves and compel them to think over the same.Quoting a few set of questions might help in co-relating.Why do we take any relationship in life seriously even when we know its end might not be as expected and everything would fall apart?Why we take relationships like friendship seriously even when we know that a single truth despite hundred lies spoken all the while,may break the bond and would lead to parting ways? Infact there are umpteen things in life we don't have a control over,yet don't know what is it that doesnt stop us from being serious in our life.Why can't we be fun loving,jovial in tackling even the worst situations in life.

We spend most of our life bearing tantrums which in no way are giving us mental peace,the sense of contentment and a settled life.Life can never always be fun.If you facing turmoil,you soon would find happiness too.In this life full of hustle and bustle,I have seen people craving for inner peace just because they are not able to untangle some complications in their life.They ultimately end up being a pissed off being.Some people end up not getting their expected goal in life,they undergo a state of depression and what not.But is any sort of resentment or repentance going to change the situation?Why not to stay Cheerful and feel blessed that you are free of going through the traumas.Bringing sense of positivity and the fact "LIFE though bitchy or witchy,can vanish with the spur of moment" can definitely help in living life to our fullest,infact every bit of it.

Stop worrying about what people think about you,how they react,respect relationships but don't lose your self respect in nurturing them.Life is an unpredictable thing,why to waste it over petty things that are just meaningless.There is so much to do in life,so much to explore,so much to unwhirl.Realise the essence of life because its good to be late than "late Mr.":D

So,Learn to live life sincerely but not "SERIOUSLY".:-)

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Shallow Brains: You can't escape them.

I never ever thought that like ponds and small rivers even people have become shallow.Shallow in the way they think,they respond,they react,just everything.There was actually a time when you could rely on people and consider them to be your friends and close ones because they belonged to you.But now with the Shallow mentality taking a toll on people,such expectations have become mere imaginations.

They lack the sense of understanding and reciprocating because they have become too materialistic and petty things like feelings,they hardly matter or hold any position in their life.Infact,the situation now is so grave that every second person is found to be cheating on other for some unclear reasons.Just for as long as they feel one should stay with them in their life,its all Okay for them,but as soon as they realise the person is expecting a bit too much they prefer to keep themselves out of league and kick such unwanted people from their lives,not even realising they might mean the world to someone.I have seen people's heart tend to malfunction at the very moment of taking some crucial decisions in life,but their brain never does.In small little things inspite of looking for pleasure,they look for their personal interest and that too on long term basis.Sounds hilarious but you too might have come across such people in your life.Needless to say,every second person who comes in your life has the same"Shallow Brain".

Infact people these days just for the sake of their mental peace crush any relation and dump it,not even being able to sense how long it might have taken someone to nurture every moment that they had spent together.And one more thing thats worth paying attention,People when they find better candidates suiting their future prospects and needs,they take no time in replacing the other candidate and again its their mighty Shallow Brain which makes them do it all.I am using the word Candidate because for such petty brains we all are nothing more but a candidate:).

Beware of Shallow brains,and don't let your brain become shallow to make things and situations appealing.I would love to be by the Shallowness of nature but not a Shallow Being:)


This awesome poem would add more meaning to what I wrote:

This is a Strange world
With a lot of people
Running after money
As it is honey
They assert,"I love to talk"
But no idle talk
When there is need
They talk to all people
They Invite,chat
Saying"I love to chat"


After their need
 they hide in their shell
Feeling quite well
Spent their life
With their wife.
When their is a strife or turmoil,
They apply oil
to their boss
At all cost
To get a raise
In their own ways.

The Inescapable Voids

"Sometimes in life we don't need anyone,

But sometimes in life we don't have anyone when we need."

Void-The dark empty space that somehow stays in your life and affects it to the core,even if everything else is working fine.Void in life due to some avoidable circumstances proves to be a disaster that ruins your life and getting out of any such trauma is more like climbing the Mt. Everest,almost next to impossible.There is no one in this world who doesn't own a void-be it for such sort of regrets or losing someone too close in life.No matter how strong and practical we may sound or appear to be like,no matter how ignorant we try to behave towards various demoralising and dejecting situations,still just a void has the power to take a toll on you and like a tornedo,it can wipe all your cherished happiness in a go.What is it that makes a void in life overpower us contradicting our perception that voids are short-lived?

Its been truely said"Hundreds of lies donot break a relationship,but a single truth does".

Similar is the power of a VOID.Its pull is even more intense than that of a black hole.Even if you try hard to get out of its whirlpool,you still get stuck into it.There are many such tornado kinda voids in my life,aren't there in yours?

My Sister And Me

For many years we have shared our lives
One roof we once lived under
Sometimes we laughed sometimes we cried
Through winter storms and thunder
The younger years have faded fast
We've gone our separate ways
But through all time our friendship lasts
Our bond in life remains
As summer brings the happy times
The autumn winds will whisper
A closer friend I would never find
Than the one I call my sister.






Me and my sister-She is elder to me by four years,indeed a good age difference but I never let that difference come in my behaviour for her:D.I bet this,nobody can make out who is the elder one,hook or crook makes me appear elder to her:P.We are very different as far as our nature is concerned-she takes sometime to mingle with people,but I take fraction of seconds,provided those people cater to my terms and conditions efficiently:D.No doubt she is an amazing person,too calm and composed,simple,down to earth.Positivity in her is to such an extent that at times I literally have to give her lectures on how to become devilish for others:D



Looking back to the time,I am reminded of so many incidents we have witnessed together.When I was just an year old,from that very age itself I had learned to threaten her:D But she has been so good that she never retaliated.Right from my holiday homework and loads of charts and stuff,she made them all for me,just for the reason that she has a cursive handwriting and that was the only time of the year when she used to boast about it:D.I didn't mind and ignorned,obviously that was the only option I was left with.We used to play"teacher-teacher",I used to be the student mostly and was made to study each and everything,the teacher in our game had to ring the bell for the next class:D(scarcity of funds to appoint somebody for this post:D) but whenever it was my turn,the bell authority was with student again:D and I could hardly teach her for more than few minutes or just till the time I could open any lesson and the class was done:D.She definitely took undue advantage of being my elder sister in such games:D and my innocence too.:P



We used to play for hours and hours together,killing time was our passion:D but never has this happened that it anyhow affected our studies.Ahhh how can I forget the "fashion show"-This game was the outcome of my sister's thought process:D.We didn't try anything like models do,the daily wear clothes kept for being ironed used to be our attire and the credit for the music-goes to my sister:P.Watching"Small wonder" generally made us feel why we were not like"Vicky-the robot" and cursed our destiny for it:D.When we both started sleeping in a separate room,I always wanted to sleep with my mother.So,I used to lure her so that I could get into mom's room somehow:D because it would have been difficult for two of us to sleep with our mother:D.So,in such cases I used to dramatise the situation and made my probability of sleeping with her on the safer side:D.She even had to bear my habit of waking her up late in the night and asking her to get me something to eat,saying"even bournvita would work":D.Ultimately,one fine day she told mom and from that day itself a lunch box with parathas was kept by my side:D.I relished it like anything every midnight.



Our fights and tiffs used to be hilarious ones:D We both used to pull each others hairs to an extent that it would take life out of anybody,but it could never take anything out of us:D.The loosening of the grip had to be a simultaneous act:P We were like killers for each other,used to fight day and night-"brawl"would be the apt word.I had the habit of crying whenever I had to go to some new school and looking at me crying and finding her attempts failing in cheering me up,the best option she was left with-start crying herself:D.I usually used to get into her class and disturb her like anything.I have been full of energy since childhood,infact overdose:D compared to her:P



An awesome sister-She used to make me learn my lessons and even used to make me revise them so that I gain some confidence and could score well in the exams:).She has been my biggest support in almost every phase of my life,she knows all my secrets and yeah as far as I think, I know hers too:D.The late night gossips have been amazing which made us sleep at 3 or 4 in the morning.During our tiffs,cursing,abusing and blaming each other used to make us feel that we were enemies to each other,but such feelings never lasted for long:)



How can I forget to mention how I used to literally wait for two occasions throughout the year-One was my birthday and the other would be hers:D.I literally used to wait for the gifts to come and before she could even think of a quick glance at her gifts,I had already chosen my share of gifts by then:D But she never said a word to me and agreed happily:) or may be not,she can answer that better:P



The space too would fall short in describing what our relationship is like but we,for sure,are the bestest buds:).Just be the way you are.

P.S. But try changing where ever you can:D specially in the matters concerning me:D Don't forget about the soft corner you have for me in your heart,soften it more day by day:D

The 2 Idiots In My Life(the 3 rd one is me:D)

I don't know exactly how many times I have seen the blockbuster movie" 3 idiots",but everytime I watch it,I am reminded of the 2 idiots in my life and ofcourse the third one is me.The time the movie was released,I had a good intimacy with quite a good number of people in my college and some people from my school even,but the feeling of that "3 idiots"kind of friendship was deep inside me.I really longed for such awesome,chill pill kinda buddies in my life,obviously not in a large number because in that case things become too messy:D.Finally, I am a part of it.The traits of each of us is so different yet don't know what is that special bond(fevibond:P) that binds us together.Since the time we became friends,I guess there was hardly anyday that we spent like couch potatoes:P always full of energy specially for the cases where we had to put in our destructive minds:D.Everyday had a new start,I never felt gloomy,monotonous and I guess those few days are when we all could live our life to our fullest.




Starting with my roomie,my close friend,Sakshi.The irony is I am still referred to as "Roomy" despite the very big fact that we both don't have any room as such:D.So,for her, I am her lifetime roomy(mind it,I didn't mean life time partner:P).A girl with totally feminine personality amongst us three,because her likings are quite girly.We used to call her "chaudhraayin" because we three had rooms in a sequence and herz was the middle one.So,she expected every session, right from the movies,chit chats,anything useless,making maggie,just everything to take place in her room.:D (combing hairs,oiling hairs:P).Actually,the only thing we were allowed to do was to sleep in our own rooms:D.She had the habit of peeping into my window from hers and check whether i was awake or not.She has been so honest to me,whenever she found the lights of my room turned off despite a test the very next day,she never betrayed me and slept the same moment with no furthur look at the topics.:D She has all the traits of being a best buddy and ofcourse she is too dear to me:) She loves to get her photo clicked,this is something i hate the most.But being with her,I was always made to click her pictures in various poses:P Though I retaliated several times yet I loved every bit of that moment.:)The awesome time we spent in class,the back benchers,she has been a big support to me in bearing all those laborious class sessions which at times were too dreadful.The secret things we did together;) there hasnt been a day when I slept early because I must say this girl is full of energy,be it any time of the day:D (You would'nt get such even after you have a glass full of glucose:D) and she used to abuse us both because for me and sush,our favourite passtime was sleeping or just lying on the bed:D.She's been a big support to me and that's what makes me love her soo much.:)




The second group member,Sushmita.She has actually proved me wrong,I took her to be very arrogant and didn't like her a bit.In the initial days of our friendship,we were too formal and whenever I had to share something with Sakshi,she used to leave the room for privacy sake and trust me I really miss that privacy till date:D because now she would'nt move her bumps a bit even if its the most secret thing:D The vivacious,full of life girl.She lives for friends and friendship,the most lazy girl.I really can't forget her sentimental dialogues and her pet words"chiii yaar chiii":D
We both are quite alike somewhat in the way we think,our ideas and all.Her dance moves have been the most entertaining thing for us,its hard for me to forget any of them:D because they were more than enough to blow anybody's mind:D.The way she used to jerk her hand whenever she got infuriated on we teasing her,but later on we too didn't pay heed to any of such acts on her part:P.There was a lobby in front of our room which had a locked room and girls in the lobby told us that late in the night the light in the room automatically gets turned off and turned on.Sushmita used to tease me by standing in front of that room and used to take my name,my branch,my room number:D (so that there's no confusion) and words to chase that witch on my part:P.In herself,there was not a single day,when she slept with her light turned off:D She always wanted to look smarter than us,this reminds me of the scooty incident when she was the driver and we were sitting behind her,the situation was such that anybody could fall any moment,but still this friend of mine was pushing us,asking us to behave properly and wanted to look smart:D.




We,The Three Musketeers,The 3 idiots,are Friends Forever.Even telepathy proves to be true in our case.Love you guys.The late night scooty ride,the Rickshaw ride:D,the lock incident,the dance sessions,the daily canteen parties and so many things to jott down here.Every day that we have spent together is still so live and fresh in my mind,feels as if it took place just a few days back.I am going to miss my college days and trust me its all because of you both:).

Get Inspired And Inspire Others

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all man doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting'
Or being lied about,don't deal in lies,
Or being hated,don't give away to hating,
And yet don't look too good,nor talk too wise.

If you can dream-and not make dreams your master;
If you can think-and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Truimph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools;
Or watch the things you gave your life to,broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose,and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there's nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them:"Hold On!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings-Nor lose the common touch,
If neither Foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you,but none too much;
If you can fill the Unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And-which is more-You'll be a Man,my son!


-Rudyard Kipling

The Best Buddy

When I cry,You help me out.
When I am happy,You hear me shout.
When I grin,You know I am really mad.
Because You are my best friend.


You can tell when I am sad.
You are there in thick and thin.
When you are sad,I will dry your tears.
When you are scared,I will comfort your fears.
When you are worried,I will give you hope.


When you are confused,I will help you cope.
And when you are lost and can't see the light,
I shall be your beacon,shining ever so bright.
This is my pledge till the end.
You may ask why?
Because YOU are my friend.






The name itself suggests,the bud who is the best.But if I start jotting down my views,this space would fall too short.The only person who sees the tears in your eyes when the world is busy prasing your smile.The one with whom you can share and imagine your wildest imagination,who knows your inns and outs,who knows how to annoy you but still comes back to you with a stupid joke turning tears into laughter.Who adores you and knows all your secrets and keeps threatning you about revealing them all amongst the other buds.

The one who appreciates your studipities and loves to be a part of them.Who knows you more than you know yourself,who teases and tortures you by hooking you up with the other people,but can't tolerate others teasing you for the same.Who finds happiness in your smile and finds a small little world in your world too.

Who can bug you at any time of the day but can,t see a problem bugging you.One who keeps to his promises and understands his friend.Idioms too would fall short.Best buddy indeed,is ur world.

Trying To Find The Essence Of Life

Unique as a fingerprint is every beat of our heart.
Precious is everytime we laugh,for every smile has it's own art.
We all follow a way,not knowing to where it might lead.
Treasure memories-some painful,some sweet.

Magical is every moment in which we dare to dream.
Victorious are the minutes in which we have the courage to swim against the stream.
Often we attempt to climb mountains,trying to reach the sun.
Floating on clouds,having some fun.

Unexpected is every facial expression,for we dont know
Which might follow.
Worthy is every tear which is shed-one for joy one for sorrow.
Perhaps all our tears are gathered in the deep waters of the sea.
For each one is unique,and perhaps was meant to be.

Beautiful are the hearts of those who are patient and prepared to wait.
Strong are those who believe that it is never too late.
Valuable is our inside for our outside will fade away,
Like ashes blowing in the wind to the end of another day.




I took a really long break from blogging,just don't know what had kept me so busy,may be the time pass things or class and stuff.Now as again I am kinda laxed about it all,I thought of penning down my feelings.

ESSENCE:sounds too smalL a word,but indeed it has an ever lasting impact.In past 4 years of my life,I have learned many things and they are just innumerable.I have even undergone a change in my approach towards life,my thinking just everything changed and the change was so drastic that i just couldnt figure it out.

After my family,friends are the only ones who are the essence of my life.I wouldnt deny that its friends only who made me learn so many things,who made me realise what relationship means,the list is just endless.But at times i feel was the change required?Have I lost myself totally just to suffice to my friends need?Some of my friends proved me wrong in this aspect and I think I would love them all my life for this.Few even proved me right and made things a disaster for me.Are they the true essence?

The World Of Imagination.

Well waking up in the morning and that too when you had a great dream last night, makes the day indeed a special one.Thats what even an imagination can do.And when its about imagination,I simply rock,because I have the wildest imagination capability(even that too would be a small word to describe my calibre:P).Classroom has been the best place where i really cant escape this hidden talent of mine.Few days back while having a conversation with my brother(the hero of my life:D),I came across even his wild imaginations(no doubt he too was bound to inherit that from me:P).He wants the best comforts in his class in terms of an air conditioner,with less of homework burden,a bed even so that students can lie on it when tired(i wish i could implement this:P).Now lets make it more imaginative,using both my n his skills.What if even the teacher lied on their beds and taught the lessons.That would have been something fabulous.And guess what if a teacher had to hit a student,obviously she/he wont get up,they would instead carry an elongated stick and beat the child frm that very place and those beds would have had roller kinda small tyres so that students can move their beds and go to the teacher for getting their queries solved:D and to add on to it what if the principal even did the same stuff.rofl.Students for the admissions would have been checked how carefully they can lie on their beds and other capailities, I mean how can they move it(people would have given donations even if their child failed to pass the admission test:D).What if students topped on not studying,i mean the criteria should have been something like"HOW LONG CAN U SLEEP".I am sure i wouldn't have topped that even:(.


Imagination is where you can kill your enemy in your thoughts,and its the only time when you can do what you can't do in real.It takes me just fraction of seconds to imagine things on people who are narrating anythng and that leaves me with nothing but laughter hard to hide.But yeah as I am a champ in fluctuating my mood and emotions,i even do that perfectly and at the right time provng to be a quiet student in class:).Even at times at public places i face the same situations.They at times become inesacpable despite my attempts of ignorance.


But thats what I guess is whats life is like.Thats what gives me reasons to smile even when I am not feeling like,lessens the burdens on my head and make me feel free.Hope things continue just the same way..:)

Me And My Brother:)

Whenever I talk about my brother,it takes me back to the time when he was born.Before his birth,I was the most pampered kid both on maternal and paternal side.So, in a way I felt that he took my place,rather replaced me.I was too embarrassed because I was 10years old that time and everyone in the hospital had the same tone and expression"congrats boni,u gotta a sweet,cute brother",and to add on to my shock my aunt told me"your brother too has curly hairs"(you know what I thought,oh christ seems he is more like a negro, and those negro kids were on my mind till the time I hadn't met him:P).

It took me a few days to accept this very fact.But after that and even today ,we are like"killerz":P.We are literally after each others life for every small little thing,be it a chocolate,be it a piece of pizza or anything weirdo,we dont spare each other:P.Its usually he who insists me to take him out for fooding and stuff because he knows it well that I would convince mom for sure,hehe.But I too dont lag behind in taking the revenge,its he who pays haha:P(hey that's been just one's or twice,but i love mentioning it again and again to mark my victory over him:P)..

A cute little brother who always wants to crack my password on my phone to check my inbox(i guess every brother wants to check whether his sister has a guy friend or not:P,good going brother.:P) and when he is not able to access my inbox,he goes straight to mom,literally threatens me saying either you tell me or tell maa:D.He adores me like anything and wouldn't have his chocolate even till the time I am not back home.

But I must say he is a caring brother.Our relationship is like we are best buddies,though we get into tiffs every now and then but at the end we do end up sayng "sorry".Thats what makes it even more cute.:)

I Can Feel The Freedom

Now as my exams are over(please no discussion after examination:P),I am like what now.I have really got a long list of "things to be done"(but they usually stay untouched:P).I wont deny if somebody would tag me as "The most Ghummakad Gal",because that is too small a word,I am a freak when it comes to hanging around anywhere.So,when I got rid of my exams,it was on the very next day we all planned a trip to LANSDOWNE.Initially,when we were on our way,I felt I would surely be killed because I was the one who suggested that place and I really wasnt able to feel that we are really getting onto some hill,it was damn hot but when we finally reached it was quite a nice place,very calm and peaceful:).But the place and the people weren't aware of us:Pthe devilish people-me,my cousin and my brother(our motto has always been something like"be it jungle,we'll alws have mangal" :P).I swear the place isn't meant for one or two people,but if you are in a big group its going to be fun:) and that is what we did.We got onto so many weird places(top of the tree:P,on roadsides with typical poses:P) and yeah how can I forget my younger brother's dialogue when I and my cousin kinda gave up and couldn't climb the tree,he said"tum mujhe chada do,main tum dono ko upar kheench lunga":P too cute.The trip was fun,though there aren't much places to be visited but when you are with your family everything sounds"KEWL".It actually took me back to the time when i was a kid:).Oh my god I dont think we left any of swings,we tried almost all,despite being overweighted for it:D.

Every day is like a new day in itself and every upcoming day is holding good surprises for me and infact evryone:).One task (that is kind of a daily routine)-when I wake up in the morning,the first thing leaving my toothbrush aside,what I do is-make a "jolly"on my hand:P because I know my brother would check it anytime for sure(he has forgotten that I taught him this game).He really doesn't count how many times he lost the game,but what is on his tip is how many times I lost it:D and so he always look forward to a lavish dinner or something,and that too out of me who is totally bankrupt:P kinda "mission impossible for me".It is usually the other way round,I take treats from him every now and then,My "Sethji":P

The Moment I Was Waiting For And Here It Is

Finally time to pack my books and keep them aside.Exams are all over,feels great:).The concept of exam is something really hard for me to digest as I am not a bookworm and cramming things on such chilly nights with a situation more like an owl,it makes everything dreadful.Now almost one and half year left and this wonderful college life would come to an end.A place where I made so many friends on whom I can rely upon,I have more of frenemies i suppose,never mind.I learned to laugh hard with everyone,learned how nightouts are made to be successful,I am kinda champ in that,I am going miss everything in the later part of my life for sure.

I don't give a second thought to how did my exam go because its not a thing worth remembering,I moreover feel just a day can't decide your intellectual level,atleast it is not present in my case,may be thats why I am mentioning it so explicitly;).I have ten days of break,but I am sure I will start getting bored from tomorrow itself.But to avoid boredom, I have planned a couple of things,I would be paryting out on Christmas eve-final decision to be taken up by my sister,obviously I would enjoy partying alone.Furthermore, I am planning something exciting so as to soothe my nerves because the last few days have really been the toughest ones for me.I am going to give a new start to everything,may be for other's good or may be for mine even.

The Birthday Girl...wow..:)

So I am the bday gal today,a day that is long awaited but gets finished off with the blink of an eye.I prefer waiting for such occasions because it feels heavenly rather than the arrival of the day.My friends are such mindblowing people,the first thing that they asked me was where to come for treat and what I had to say" atleast wish toh karlo pehle":D. My cousins pet question"kitne basant paar kar liye:P" and the best way of escaping such questions"girls se age nahi poochte",growing older day by day:P.

I had to attend the calls till 2 at night because everyone was at home and had to set an alarm to wish me up.Ghhosssh,the best reason that I was told"yaar kya karen alarm ab baja or tv dekhte hue so gaye:D".Anyways,atleast due to these diwali vacations,I didn't bear those birthday bumps and those deadly rather brutal beating which leaves you with nothing much but a backache so that evryone can make out who the birthday girl is.

I clearly remember how I used to celebrate my bday during childhood days.Toffees,chocolates and which friend to be taken along for distribution(kahin woh bura maan gayi toh:P) and yup attire was something I was very particular about.I literally counted days on my fingers,kind of countdown.

The cutest gift I got this time is my brother's card:).He made it for me using all his creativity and small little brain,choo chweet:).Surprises is something I dont believe in because people around me have made me such:P they literally ask me"what do want as a gift,any ideas??" and that obviously leaves me with a smile saying"rehne do itna dimaag hi lagane padega mujhe toh whats the use:D"

With we growing up,the pattern and the ways of celebrating birthday do change.Feeling kinda grown up today,something i never felt before:).A day that makes you feel special,a day meant just for you,a day when you are made to feel that you really hold an important place(thats just a misconception for 24 hrs,people usually forget such assumptions once the next day begins:D).

Feeling A Little Free And Chilled Out :)

"Never believe the lines on your hand
That predict about your future
Coz people who dont have hands
also have a future
Just believe in yourself"



After the laborious sessionals and the dreadful nightouts, I am finally feeling so chilled out.I know I wouldn't come up with flying colours in these tests of mine and that too especially when they had a hi fi level(iit kinds :D).So, obviously over head transmission was unavoidable.My luck usually doesnt favour me,may be you wont believe to what I am saying but its true.If out of the whole book, I leave a section which is not very important,guess what the paper contains three fourth of it:P hard luck man.Just waiting for my destiny to take a turn-a sommersault instead :)

I usually think of quiting this stuff, I mean padhai likhai.I have a real wild imagination and during my exams it widens like anything:).I would prefer swapping my life with anyone,mind it anyone:P my servant,my pet,the sweepers (I think I don't need to elaborate on it furthur:D)

I know this phase wouldn't last for long, but as I have a small child inside me, I think it would definitely last forever:).Just hope that I get a good job,with thousands of bucks in my hand for my kharcha paani because my expenses are touching sky day by day:P.

The Mystery World

"NO matter how bad we are,
We are not totally useless,
Atleast we can be always used as bad examples "



College is the only time when we try out everything be it an absurd,something that is weird,but that is what truely defines it.Ghostly creatures are something that have got a really good connection with the people in the hostels(but i guess people these days are nothing less than a ghost:D, so I dont want to insult ghosts by making any comparison).A witch flying on a broom stick is a common one,a girl hanging around in the hostel with her candle:D(gum naam hai koi badnaam hai koi:D),sounds funny.But you know what I know a real one-a magic or know how to call the good spirits.Isn't that amazing?

Earlier even my friends didn't believe to whatever I said,but when I proved that stuff and made them feel its presence, they were totally dumbstruck.I took it to be a joke initially because I usually don't believe in such things(there are already so many ghastly things in day to day life so never thought of any).Well I am an expert now;).

What you need is a matchstick box and concentration and loads of greedy and self centerd questionaire to be asked to:D.

So, finally what do you conclude,was it a cooked up story or it is something that has a scientific ground?Well I did'nt try finding out much about it,if you get time do help me out with this..

And yeah once I even asked about the age and sex of that spirit,came out to be a female ;)sounds funny,crazy,whacky but it is as true as the universal fact that sun revolves around the earth:D or vice versa.That is a real pandora box.Lets see when it actually splits out its truth..:)

Me And My Daily Life

"Sick of crying,
Tired of trying,
Yeah I am smiling,
But inside I am dying"

Don't worry I am not feeling so at the moment,but I had a similar kinda situation a couple of week back.I guess I took a little longer break as a blogger,but one should go for blogging only when you actually feel like doing so.So, I am here again to pen down my feelings and experiences so far.

My new session began about two months back,now it is the time that my sessionals are approaching.You wont believe that during my sessionals, my situation is like a calf being taken to get slaughtered:D.I am a true believer in night outs,so as always to get this trend tagged to my name I am going to follow it.

I usually think I am so smart;) I am not praising myself, just that I know really well how to tackle even the next to impossible kind of situations in my college and my life too.Ideas click me in a fraction of seconds, so you obviously can't call me a tubelight that flickers:D,rather I am a bulb.For instance,if I am late for my class,the most tried out reason with full sincereity,dedication on my face I generally say"Sir, actually I was standing in library's queque as I had to get the books issued".Me being specy adds to my oratorship quality-that is what my sister even calls me' a born orator'.It makes me look sterny,bookworm,deadly an ideal student though I am not.I am also good at proxy,I can be the nominee for the best proxy queen award:P.I am still a learner,I really need to put my potential to prove so;).

Shouting at the teachers for the attendance sake just as the lecture begins is now an important part and parcel of our life.If that due to some unavoidable reasons it doesn't happen,the entire lecture and its stuff goes undigested;).

Have you ever tried a combo of spicy punjabi touch choley with a piece of maggot,if not then you are cordially invited to my mess because my friend did so.Luckily, I was at home that day.

The life would continue in the similar manner for almost one and a half year,but it is a lovely feeling being a part of it:).

The Beginning Of A New Session

Finally after enjoying the 2 months break(I was nothing more than a couch potato throughout:D),I am all set to be back into the hustle bustle life.This is the time when I wont be Ragging juniors(antiragging group guys because I am in 3rd year).From tommorrow onwards my life is going to take a new turn in itself.

By now I have packed all my stuff,every nick nack but somehow I am kinda chillax as my home is nearby(just at 45 minutes drive:D).So, I can get anything at one phone call:).Thats what the college life should be like.Isnt it?

Tomorrow it is going to be really a hectic day out for me because you need to stand in queue for hours together if you really want to yourself a room in the hostel(the more longer you stand,the best room you'll get:D).Isnt that a good one :)?

I am in a dilemma,a big one as I am not able to decide what to opt for my future studies-MBA or M.TECH.There is a little flexiblity that I am comfortable with both:D.So basically that is what adding to my dilemma even more(multitalented girl you see).I am a pendulum natured person,so lets see where this pendulum of mine takes me to.

The most sleepy day of my life-its really difficult to come out of your couch potato kinda image and that to when you have enjoyed it hell lot in your vacations.

There are a couple of things I would surely miss when I get back to that laborious class sessions.fFrstly my A.C.-how I literally used to lie down on bed facing towards the a.c. so that I could get the best air out of it:D.
Secondly,my car-because I learnt driving recently,its not that recent but it took me years altogether to get to this stage,my best speed being 40-45.You want a lift but thats at your own risk:P.Yeah lastly, the mouth watering food-that pathetic and hellish mess food.You wont believe but I am kinda promoter of that food stuff,you really need to appreciate if you want to survive:D.

Neways I'll compromise,will go to cafe rather than mess and that too by bunking my classes.Isn't that a compromise:P? Indeed a big one.:)

The Birth Of A Blogger

It is great being a part of the blogging world,something that I had longed for because I am into writing stuff.So,from midnight onwards begins my journey of blogging(never thought it would be today).You will surely love to read what I am going to write because there are hell lot of things I got to share with you,things that are very weird and crazy.You will get to know about my inner demons,something that just me and my heart knew so far and now it is going to get publical.May be somethings about phinx,whacky things of my life,when my heart made backflips and loads of many more amazing things.Today is just a start,I also need to get rid off using my sms shorcuts out here;-)

It is not just about my life alone but about the most interesting phase in everyones life-The college life and yeah many more things would be tried using this medium(you really need specimen to experiment your stuff:D).

I am sure you will love to read it.If not the MJ Or Beatles(because I tried plucking the strings of my guitar and singing stuff but I couldn't soothe anyone's nerve,so had to soothe my own:D).You never know may be I am the next Jane Austen or Chetan Bhagat.